This is actually quite exciting.  I did channel a message from my guardian angel!  I am not releasing it yet as it talks of things I am not unveiling to the world yet.  But it felt great to talk to her and get some help on my next steps.  So stay tuned...

However, I did get an inspiration.  Remember the white unicorn I named Solace in the first posting?  She has come forth in a needle felted item.  This one is more delicate, Solace is quite large, but this little one is so darling.  Maybe it is her when she was young.  She was so fun to make, I am going to make more in various colors.
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I have always loved unicorns, what little girl doesn't?  I have never worked with their energy though, so this is new for me.  I am not sure what she resonates with, so for now she has my signature Herkimer diamond in her heart center and it seems to be a great fit.

Has anyone worked with unicorn energy?

Oh, and she is for sale for sure, or I can make one for you with any colors you want.

Why so quiet?  You see my unveiling of the art part of my guardian angel, and then... silence.  This is why I was hesitant to post my experience with you all.  Why would you keep reading this when the best part is not happening?  My message from my guardian angel.  

I think it is the fear that sets in, or at least the uncertainty.  What will people think if I can't get a message from my own angel?  Why would they trust I can accomplish theirs?  The logical side of my brain says "You can't post this!  It's a marketing nightmare, you can actually lose sales over this.  No one wants to hear this."

The truth is that I have not tried to get my message yet.  I have been sitting with her, placing her with me when I work even.  I created a guardian angel for a friend of mine and she takes her everywhere with her, talks to her, and gets lots of messages back.  I guess I thought maybe this would happen to me.  So, I hang her near me as I work.  Yet I have not tried to actively get a message.

So, there is my tiny update everyone, posting in hopes that it will 1) get my butt in gear to try it 2) show you that if you experience the same thing, you are not alone, and 3) maybe nudge you to try whatever intuitive exercise you have been thinking about but have not started.

This is my public commitment to try to channel her message.  Here I go...  

Hi everyone,
An update on my journey to making my own guardian angel as I do for others.  This has been very enlightening indeed.  When I create an angel for someone, the process goes pretty much the same, I center myself, give thanks, and ask just the angel I am creating to come forward front and center to my mind's eye so I can see them, feel them, get a sense of their personality.  I often get images right away, and I start to pull fibers.  In a way I hear them saying "not that blue, a deeper one", or "oh, I hadn't thought of that, that is nice."  I don't hear clear voices, it is more like a thought in my head that isn't really mine.  And sometimes I seem to lose the "connection" to them and I have to either re-group or stop and come back later. 

So I centered, and asked my angel to come forth.  I said "I am creating an angel for Claire Demarest, please have her primary, feminine energy angel come to the forefront."  I saw the purples again and felt confident it was her showing me and not me making it up.  She gave me much clearer images this time.  She was in a very full dress with a tight bodice.  Her hair is dark blonde with ringlets, swooped up on her head with some cascading down.  And then she seemed to take a deep breath and show me that her aura is gold.
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My next step was to look at all my fibers, and start pulling out ones I think are what she showed me. Here is what I pulled.  I went back and forth and back and forth.   Some were to bold or bright, not quite the color she showed me.  The second image is what I narrowed it down to.

As I started working, I noticed that it felt very comfortable, it felt very familiar, more like she was looking over my shoulder and guiding me, not presenting herself in my mind's eye.  I realized that I feel this a lot, and maybe just wasn't realizing in my daily life that this was her.  I asked if this was true and the thought I got back was "Of course.  This is how we work together, I am showing you that I am always with you, whispering behind you into your ear.  This is how we work together, it is different than when you call on someone's angel.  You are trying to do this process of making me as you do other's, but we are actually going to practice working together as we do always."

The next hour was more like a conversation, us working together, collaborating what fibers to use and how she would look.  She was pretty clear on some things, and on other things, such as the detail work, she got excited about something I pulled out and said "oh, let's try that" or "can we do this instead".  I asked her why she kept changing her mind and why she had me redo a few things.  She said simply "Because I can."  I said that was a little presumptuous.  And then several layers of her meaning came forth. 

First, she was doing this partly for practice with me.  Trusting, getting to know her "thoughts" verses my own.  I realized what a gift this is.  She was showing me that I can actually have that much of a connection with angels and how cool is that!  Second, she simply enjoyed it and reminded me it is as much about the process, the joy of being in the moment, as it was about the "finished product."  And let me tell you, she was enjoying the process. Finally, it was reminding me how fun and rewarding it is for angels to be able to take a more dense form - my gift to these angels is helping them, even if as a small soft sculpture, to have form. 

When it came to her wings, she most definitely showed me the very large, white wings that point up to the sky.  I saw them as having quite large, distinctive wings tips going all the way down.  I started to make them, and she changed her mind, liking the more wispy feel of the ones I made.  Then came the halo.  She kept showing it as a glow, not an actual halo, and reminded me that halos are the way painters tried to portray the aura they saw around the head of the angels.  That it is not a physical thing, it is their aura.  And hers is gold.  So I am still working on it, nothing I do seems quite right.

And her hair is not quite right yet either.  I need to create tiny ringlets still.  Finally, she wants some gold bead work, so I am still working on that.  Oh, and finally, finally, she wants her arms to be a darker purple, with less pink.  Yep.  I tried to be okay with the lack of ringlets in her hair, and her sleeves being a little too pink, but every time I think about her or look at her, those pop into my head.  As I sit here, I know those are my thoughts more than hers.  That is my need as an artist to get it right.  I think this is a good thing, if I am going to make an artistic, physical representation of the image they show me, I want it to be accurate, and what they want it to be.

So, minus those things I just mentioned, here she is in almost complete form!

So I'll try again.  I am not discouraged, actually, it honestly feels like she is near and kind of using this as a "teaching moment".  About trust, about confidence, and maybe even about getting unfinished projects done before embarking on new ones...

Tune In for my next attempt!
​Claire

Thank you for joining me on this journey.  I truly hope that through my experience you also gain insights and things to try to connect with your own guardian angels!

To remind you of my reason for doing this and sharing it with you, is that it really started bothering me that I can so easily connect with other's guardian angels, so why is it so hard to connect with my own?  I have never tried to connect with them in the way I do other people's during my creation process.  Since I am such a private person, I can only assume it was my angels who put this notion in my head to share it with all of you.

This is what happened today.  I decided to do a card pull to just see what was drawn.  I have many card decks, I admit.  A lot of them I don't actually use that much.  The first one you see is the first deck I received from Doreen Virtue during my "Angel Therapy Practitioner" training.  The $5 you see is the first payment I received from a fellow student during the last day of our training, when we did readings for each other.  I keep it in my deck to remind me of that amazing week long training I did.  I have never pulled this card before, I don't even recall seeing it in the deck.

     OMEGA CARD: Victory! Your desire is coming to fruition.  Keep up the good work!"  A little corny?  I agree, but read the message behind it.  This is what I pulled from that: "When you listen to what your heart whispers, you swim in natural synchronicity.  Stay relaxed and confident... if you notice problems... it simply means you are temporarily out of sync... no need for shame, simply release your doubts to Heaven, and rest assured that a happy outcome is yours."  

Next I pulled a card from my trusty companion deck with Archangel Michael.  I figure he will have something to say.  I was right, direct and to the point as always.

     ARCHANGEL MICHAEL CARD - YOU CREATED THIS SITUATION AND YOU HAVE THE POWER TO CHANGE IT: In summary, I took away this message.  "This card is a reminder that you are a powerful creator... you have the skills to rise above... as long as you blame you will remain stuck... Call upon God and Archangel Michael, and then take charge according to your (their) guidance... make a list of action steps and then follow through."

Of all the cards I could have pulled, these really hit home and are right on the money.  Good reminders, good support. 

So even though this journey is to artistically create and connect to my own guardian angels, clearly I have another guardian helping me out.  I am not sure of her name.  I at first thought I knew, but  like with my angels, am unsure of myself.  For the time being I am calling her Solace.  This is in honor of a truly amazing horse (black Tennessee Walker) that played a huge part in my life several years ago.  She has since passed, but has never been forgotten.  Who knows, maybe this is Solace still with me in a new-ish form?

Tune in to my next entry to see what happens next :).

Angel Blessings, 
Claire (& Solace)