This is the third day I have worked on this, and it is very interesting indeed. I will try to include a lot of photos to give you visuals.
First, a little about the process I go through when creating someone's guardian angel. All I need is the person's name, although a little background is nice since I receive a message from the angel and I sometimes want clarification or more specifics that I think will most help the person.
Here is my work station, a little messy for sure:
I started out doing what I always do, taking a moment to center myself and get focused. I do this through an exercise of "dropping from my head to my heart", you can read about it HERE if you would like. Once I feel connected to and at my heart, I hold the Celestite and call in the guardian angel I am going to create. It goes something like this. "Guides and Guardians, thank you for this opportunity, thank you for being with me, keeping me safe and focused, and help me to get out of my own way so I can truly be open to hearing, seeing, sensing, knowing the guardian angel for ___________. As much as I love working with all of you, I ask that JUST the guardian for ____________ please come forward, front and center. I ask that you come to me in a way that I can understand, and create into a piece of art. I ask that you show me clearly what you want __________ to see and know. Thank you."
I then just breathe and see what comes. It often seems that not a whole lot is coming to me, just an image or phrase, but when I go to work on what I saw, or write down the images and feelings I get, a lot flows out of me. Kind of like a book vs. a movie; what takes 2 pages to describe in a book can be a 5 second scene that actually tells so much of the story.
I first saw an actual angel that I had already created. I asked if that was really true, and to show me again. So, I went to look for her photo. I tried very hard not to look at the painting I have of my guardian angel from Angels by Sharae, but given she is right above me, I did anyway. And…. you guessed it, I started doubting myself. I thought "You are just picking colors in your own head that are from the painting, you aren't actually talking to her. "
I asked again for clarification, saying "Let's start over, are these really your colors? And I saw BRIGHT YELLOW instead. Someone once told me "You think your favorite colors are yours, but they aren't. They are your guardian angel's colors." Light purply-pink is not one of my favorite colors. I like it fine, but not as much as I like deep purple. And I DO love yellow. I created an angel awhile back that said she wanted to come forth. I loved making her, posted her for sale, assuming someone would claim her. No one has, so I went to hold her and see if maybe I had created my own, but got an instant NO, I am all yellow. Is she yours maybe?
So, I decided to take a break. I left for awhile and came back but my ego-mind tried to trick me into thinking I needed to create Solace first, as she was going to help me. I entertained it as I have been wanting to create a horse for awhile now, but realized that this was of course ego distracting me in a big way - that would be a week long distraction! (If you are unsure who Solace is, read the post before this.) I decided that was silly and went to work on Cougar for awhile, I really needed to get him done anyways. And look at the result!
So I'll try again. I am not discouraged, actually, it honestly feels like she is near and kind of using this as a "teaching moment". About trust, about confidence, and maybe even about getting unfinished projects done before embarking on new ones...
Tune In for my next attempt!
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